by ESA
Certain times I feel as if I’m alone
Especially during the night
I try to write
It out
It’s like I’m underwater and I can’t breathe
Like something is pulling on me
Like I’m chained to something and cannot move
I cry for help yet
No words come out
Tears roll down my face
For a minute I forget my place
Who I am
Where I am
It makes no sense
It isn’t fair
I don’t know this feeling or how to lose it
That is why I don’t stay up during the night
That is a feeling I can’t fight
I am not strong enough
I don’t tell anyone because I hate that attention
I hate how often I feel this way
And that’s exactly why I go to sleep at 11 pm.