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Lost Him

by NYELA


‘I don’t wanna, talk about it

How you broke my heart…

If I stay here just a little bit longer

If I stay here won’t you listen

To my heart, Oh my heart’

It was hard to talk about it

Hard to think about it

Sometimes I would just sit there just be quiet

I tried it in silence

I’d listen to voices in my head

Sayin this hurt will all be over

But instead I just felt it all over

This pain cut deeper into my veins

And I stopped myself because I know you’re not supposed to say his name in vain

But Goddamn

Why did it have to be him

Why did I have to see my son’s body fly past me like it was the wind

A buckle, that’s all it took

I wasn’t speeding but I took a look in the backseat

He was standing up

I said ”Baby sit down and buckle up before we get hit”

I said ”Baby sit down and buckle up before we get hit”

I said ”Baby sit down and buckle up before”

We got hit

My car was like a teenager’s broken heart crushed by those

Who they thought they could trust

Who they thought they could love

Who they thought would keep them safe

But that’s not what I did

Maybe if I would’ve just pulled over before we got on the road to make sure you were buckled in

Maybe if I would’ve put your seat on the other side so that the impact wouldn’t have hurt you as much

Maybe if I would’ve just left you at home

You didn’t have to come, but mommy just loves spending time with her baby

So…

I don’t wanna, talk about

How you broke my heart…

If you stay here just a little bit longer

If you stay here I will listen

To your heart, Oh your heart